curry anyone??

Song on laptop : Angel of Mine by Monica

              Why is it so hard for me to make my OWN decision?If given a chance i will never make decisions for myself…Many of times,i sit in front of the menu not knowing wat to order,hoping that sumone will decide for me what to eat…esp when i dont understand half the things written in the menu…hahah….
             Was invited by my friend to join him and 15 of them to Santubong to spend a night there…Was really interested with the idea despite the fact that im not so close to most of them and i don’t know some of the people…And to make the decision harder,it was on my 1st weekend here and i didnt want to miss church for it.My parents wont be so pleased either….But anyways,i asked my parents if i could go,hoping they were decide for me whether i should go or not…when given the green light by my parents,i was still torned…was still undecided whether i should go for it,spend one nite with ppl i hardly know or should i just drop this golden opportunity of meeting up with old frens and rekindle sum friendship…i have no idea why is it soo hard for me to make one stupid decision,esp now that my parents have given me that green light…was really hoping that my parents will give me a big fat no to solve all my problems…i guess i was afraid that i will feel left out among them and would end up not enjoying my time there….if it was just a day trip,i think i wouldnt have minded so much…ugh,Adriana,wats wrong with u???why cant u just make one stupid decision for urself???dont u want to get from the house and have fun with friends???ugh

             Nevertheless,i went in the end and suprising,i really enjoyed my time there…got to see all the different character of people and discover things bout my old friends…but the bad thing is,now my leg is itching like mad from all the sand fly bites…must resist from scratching them or they will leave scars on my leg…hahah….

  two sweet couples walking down the beach enjoying the serenity there

look…the crabs are rather artistic too…

tata!!!

                   When was the last time you thought to yourself that you needed to change your hairstyle and actually come about doing it?When was the last time you changed that old,worn out pair of shoe you have on for as long as you can remember?When was the last time u changed your handphone coz the old one was starting to give your problems?When was the last time you had to change your lifestyle because the lifestyle u are currently having is spoiling either your lungs or your liver or your heart?
                 I use to think that changes were good…well,at least ppl tell me that changes are good…But are they really good?Sumtimes we do realize that some people,instead change for the better,has change for the worst.Its funny how people can change from one extreme to another…one minute they are your best of best friends and the next moment, KA-BOOM…they are stabbing you from behind…One minute,you are laughing away with them,the other minute,you are yelling at each other and probably wont talk to each other anymore..
                 But i somehow  feel that changes are important,depending on what kind of change it is,i guess…The change should make you a better person all together,right?Years back,i always wanted to change my eating habit,since i was bigger last time…never got around doing it coz i was just plain lazy to get up from my comfort zone…til i started fasting and thats when i realize that change will only happen if u start trying…and thats when i begin to slowly change my eating habit,and lost about 15kg…but sad to say now,i lost that determination to eat almost nothing for the day…haha…so to change,u will need to get out from that comfort zone…it might be,being on that cozy bed,sleeping all day long or the feeling of familiarity of the things around that prevents u from changing…Then as you get up from that comfort zone,change must take place slowly but surely,you will see the results soon..and alot of determination must follow that…if there isnt any determination,then you will fall back into that comfort zone again…

                 What changes are good u may ask me now…well,changing to a better person means treating other people better…making them smile and when you begin to care for other people more than u care for yourself…when your vocabulary has more YOU in it and less ME or I.Changing for a better person means quiting smoking esp after being told by your friends or loved ones so many times…Having a healthy lifestyle of exercising at least 30 mins a day and chose to eat more greens and drink more plain water…Change to be a more generous person,giving to others,esp when they are in need…And at the same time learn to receive too :)….Changes will only take place after you decide what and in which area you should change…List them down and start by slowly changing,step by step…
                 So im determined to change to be a better person…smile more,love more and care more…  I dont want my frens to end up talking about how much i changed for the worst…instead i wanna leave a lasting impression on ppl,a good one…haha…
                  Til then,i think i must CHANGE the stupid   alanis morrissette song playing on my laptop…Its spoiling my calm mood…Tata
              

2 more practicals to go!!!!I cant wait!!!Yippee!!!!!

Im now In the common hostel internet room now….i just canceled my personal internet connection the other day and now im missing it terribly…the computer here does not have msn and i tried downloading it the otherday but it just cant…damn…and the damn keyboard of this computer  is soooo damn keras!!!aand the keypad is not working properly…the ‘a’ button is oversensitive and so is the stupid spacebar..:(

    a little update on my life, my uni exams will be starting on the 29th may…so soon yet i feel so unprepared…there is just sooo much to study !!!but i guess everybody feel the same way too….hmmm…..the bds students will be starting  their uni exams tomolo and i can see the tension in their faces…which in turn makes me tension tooo….o_0

ugh…another thing why i hate commom internet rooms is that ther will be limited amount of working computers and sooo many ppl want to use it at the same time…a gal is waiting to use my pc and dia sangat busuk!!!gotta get out of here asap!!!til then,please do pray for me…for this exams….once its over,its bye bye 1st year mbbs in india!!!but must make sure i pass it first lah!!haha…and its hello malaysia!!!

huhuhuhuhuh

Song on laptop: Lean on me by i seriously dunno who

                                      God’s Masterpiece Is Mother

                                   God took the fragrance of a flower…
                                           The majesty of a tree…
                                      The gentleness of morning dew…
                                             The calm of the sea…
                                     The beauty of the twilight hour…
                                          The soul of a starry night…
                                    The laughter of a rippling brook…
                                         The grace of a bird in flight…
                                  Then God fashioned from these things
                                             a creation like no other,
                                  And when the masterpiece was through,
                                        He called it simply-MOTHER
                                               -Herbert Farnham-

                 All these years,to me Mothers’ day is just another normal day but the only difference is,on this very day we honour our mother and let her know how much u love her…It never occured to me,why the heck did people created such a day as this?Must we wait for one particular day in a year to express our thankfulness and show how much we love our mother???Thats why i never took this very day seriously….Til i started staying away from home…That is when i started to appreciate my mom more,in fact,its when i started appreciating my family more…its because of them, im here today….Like people always say,when u cant have sumthing anymore,that is when u realize how important is it to you…So by staying away from home,i make sure i do not miss mothers’ day or fathers’ day…
          Today as i sat in church today and when i received a sms from one of my local friends,he told me how he is celebrating mothers’ day…For some reason,at that very moment as i was reading it,i suddenly felt sooo homesick….suddenly i missed my mom sooo much…The longing to see her and to hear her voice,to tell her how much i love her,pains me sooo much that i started to shed tears…haha….(i hope no one noticed!)Every year,at home,my brothers and I make it a point to make breakfast for our mom,even when most of the time i wont wake up early enough to help my brothers but,ahem,the thought is there…and i as the big sister would make either lunch or dinner for here….We dont really celebrate it in large scale coz my mom’s bday will be around the corner too…My mother never expects anything from us but yet,its so fulfilling to see the smile on her face when she comes down from her room to find breakfast all ready for her…and the smile on her face when we all wish her ‘happy mother’s day’….
         As i think about how much my mom cares for me,it really put me to shame to realize how imperfect i am as a daughter…Being a rebellious daughter,i am always refusing to listen to my mom’s advice and would fight back whenever she is scolds me as a gesture of ’self-defence’…I remember once,both of us got into a terrible fight,up to the point that my mom,broke down and cry…and she even threaten to leave the hse…I really have no idea why and how can i be so cruel then…i didnt even apologize to her as i most probably think i was not wrong…and i knew that no matter what,my mom will still forgive me and she will still love me and forget bout it…and i was right,no matter how many times i argued with her or how many times i made her sad,she will be the first person to console me and she still showed me so much love,love that i sometimes do not deserve…But its through her persevered love that slowly changed me and moulded me to learn how to be a more graceful person  and a less rebellious person.To be the person i am today…
           I used to take things for granted when i was in the comfort of my home,til i started  going to another state to stay.My parents are the people who always supported me in everything i do,constantly reminding me how much they love me and that they are always praying for me….In my 1st few months in ktt,i was really depressed and the terrible Celcom line made things worst…there was hardly any coverage in my room and the line was always cut off when im on the phone…So one day,i was soooo depressed and i was soooo homesick that i practically cried like a baby while talking to my mom(I very seldom cry in front of my parents) and she became so worried bout me that a few days after that incident,a parcel came for me from home and inside was a MAXIS sim card(coz maxis had better coverage in my college) That very moment i was sooo touched by that gesture,it made me cry like a pig again…haha…

                                 
                                               Mother’s Love

                                        Her love is like an island,
                                     In life’s ocean, vast and wide
                                         A peaceful, quiet shelter
                                 From the wind,the rain and the tide
                                     ‘Tis bound on the North by Hope
                                         By Patience on the West
                                    By Tender Counsel on the South
                                          And on the East by Rest
                                      Above it like a beacon of light
                                     Shine Faith, and Truth and Prayer
                                    And tru’ the changing scences of life,
                                            I find a haven there.
                                             -Author Unknown-

                The author of my anatomy book,BD Chaurasia said in one of his topics that ’since God cant be everywhere,He created Mothers’….Despite the fact that God is omi-presence(He can be everywhere) but we can never deny the fact that Mothers are like jewels,a gift from God…Someone He created to show us love,like the way He loves us…have u wonder why is it that even how badly u acted,ur mom still never fail to show u unconditional love?Well coz mothers are created in the image of God,to show unconditioned love…:)And because of that we must always HONOUR OUR FATHER AND MOTHER(one of the 10 commandments)I didnt do much for mothers’ day this year…i sent her a mothers’ day card cum birthday card 2 weeks ago and i called her today….but its funny that i didnt have to guts to tell her how much i missed her…i guess i am never good in becoming all mushy mushy to my family members…hehe….but im sure she knows that i love her!Many words cant express the way i feel for her but im sure she knows deep down that i can never be more grateful to have a mother like her…Tho there are times when i do wish that i have a ‘better’ mother but thruthfully speaking, no one can replace my mom nor is there anyone on the surface of this earth is better than her…:)

LOVE U MOM!!!

my mom and I during mothers’ day last year

‘ A wife of noble character who can find?
     She is worth far more than rubies;
She is clothe with strenght and dignity;
     She can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks of wisdom,
     and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
     and does not eat bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
     her husband also,and he praises her:
   "many women do noble things,
       but u surpass them all."
Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting;
    but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
    and let her works bring praise at the city gate.’

Proverbs 31:10, 25-31

The jpa officers came to visit us again the weekend before our exams…This time,instead going to Hotel Taj manjarun,we went to eat at albeeman instead…food was sooo yummy but one thing…they really kedekut with the food :(…each person was only entitled to one piecd of chicken…and when we wanted to go for second round,there wasnt any food left…no refill too…:(

come…let’s go!!!

.Happy faces…pretty gals….

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Anne says…" no,u are not having my ice cream"

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crazy ppl by the name of izreen and bull…hugz!

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Hmmm….My new boyfriend???think again!!Hong Ling and I

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hmmm…my bodyguards….muahahahha….

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dont u dare mess with us…well,at least him….ahem

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I have no idea why does chee chung wanted to wear those glasses…they belong to meng yee,btw….

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The two chinese gals in indian clothes…either we are too confused or we are just trying to blend in…

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them again…this time with another friend….loges

anyways,enjoy with the pictures!

Song on laptop : My World by Avril Lavinge

         The sign board in front….

          " Medic university"
              drive slowly….
        do not kill the students,
            leave it to us……"

Yups,medic school is really killing the students in it slowly…bit by bit…haha…im really doubtful if we will all graduate as doctors or psycho patients…haha…No wonder Malaysia is short of doctors…hahahaha…..
        Anyways,after almost one year of being in india doing medic,i have a list of conclusions to make….

WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A MEDICAL STUDENT
1) Willing to sacrifice your sleep to prepare for class or for exams the next day
2) Willing to sacrifice looking good,having pimples all around your face and dark circles around your eyes
3) The feeling of fear before the exams,feeling like u dont know everything,that whatever u learnt has gone down the drain
4) Keeping your head up high even when u are scolded by the lecturers during practical exams and during viva
5) Feeling so stressed all the time and you feel like running away and quiting
6) Scarifice doing the things u like,scarifice playing around alot and scarifice having fun so often
7) Feeling so stupid in class when the rest in class can answer all the questions the lecturer ask
Feeling homesick in the midst of exams and u cant do anything bout it instead crying urself to bed
9) Letting the person u love so dear go as start your life in a new country coz 6 yrs is just too long
10) Getting up after the lecturer told u that u did badly for viva voce and not let that put u down
11) Able to face your fears

BUT ITS PRICELESS WHEN;
1) the lecturer tells u that u did well in the exams
2) the 1st distinction
3) finding new frens who also are facing the same problem as u
4) when the exams is finally over and u can spare one day just sleeping in the whole day
5) When u graduate as a doctor,and i think thats the ultimate gift anyone can have:)

what is twin peaks supposed to mean???farny!!!hahaha

Song on laptop: Away from the Sun by Three Doors Down

         Times flies so fast when you are having fun,people always say…then what happens to time when things are rough?My days here has been like a fluctuating graph,lately…at days,im having the time of my life but yet at days,im feeling so depressed to the point of running away from this place…
        i still cant understand how can one incident change a person’s perceptive on another person,even when the day before that they had have a great time together?And coz of that is willing to let go of a friendship?this has been bugging me this pass few days when i noticed that one of my fren is ignoring me…To me,friendship is far more important that anything else,much more important than having a boyfriend…Boyfriends will never last but Friends will always remain,no matter what happens in between…losing a friend is like losing a part of my body…It hurts me soooo much to see all my old school friends drifting further and further from me…and when i return home and realize that things are just aint the same as the way used to be,it hurts me even more…There isnt much to talk about anymore coz the circumstances has changed…Its inevitable that people change as time goes by,that ppl will find new friends,pick up a new hobby,have different interest…and before u know it,u dont stand on common grounds anymore…That is why i cant afford to lose my new found friend and the reason why it cringe me so much to realize that he(shall not enclose his name) is ignoring me now…
         So i went over to talk to him today,after thinking bout it for 2 days and after gaining enuff courage to ask him whats wrong…and a few things he said strucked me…he told me that maybe the reason he acted like that was coz he cared for me too much that he is sumhow dissapointed at me…How can u be in a friendship if u dont care for the other person?i think its only when u start caring for each other,then that is when a friendship can be build…Oh well…Guess he must be really upset at me…:(so we talked and laid down what we both feel.But still  when i asked him if things will be ok between us now,he was like,’i dunno’.. i really do hope things will get better between us after today…i believe that i did the best i could do…i just hope he sees my sincerity in it…

         The new shopping mall opposite just open!!!now we have a cinema in mangalore,pizza hut,a big supermarket(just like carrefour) and a designer clothe shop-pentaloons…the cinema has been open for weeks dy…the movies are abit outdated but having a decent looking,huge cinema is way better than having none,rite??So far ive been there once to watch Fun with Dick and Jane…Well,the size of each cinema is real huge!! its actuallt as big as cinema 1 of gsc in midvalley…and when i enter it,I could smell fresh popcorn and man,it really feels like im back home in malaysia!!
      then there’s pizza hut…opened 3 days before easter…now,the big bazaar and pentaloons is opened…had their grand opening last friday…and omg,mangalore has never been that congested before!!!there were traffic jams outside our hostel and the mall was packed with people…Man,Mangalore is really developing now!!!Ill give the mall a few more months to finally have all the shops to open…and shopping in mangalore will be like heaven…hehehe…

    exams are coming nearer and nearer….yet it i still have ALOT to study…ugh…jia you jia you adriana!!!will have to go now…guilt pangs!!

-signing off-

me!

"The Son of man must suffer many things at the hands of the elders,chief priests and teachers of the law,and he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life"

               Christians all over the world observed Good Friday yesterday…2000 yrs ago,God sent his one and only son to earth for one purpose.The purpose was to save us from our sins which the penalty for it was death…His purpose was for love…As predicted by the prophets years before Jesus’s birth,He must suffer many things and be crucified on the cross and on the third day rise up from the death…so Jesus came to earth,made a dwelling among men,teaching them,loving them and healing all the diseases and sickness and to fulfil what the prophet said,to die for all of us,that we,his children will have eternal life.

"For God so loved the world,he gave His one and only Son.That whoever believes in Him shall not perish but will have eternal life" John 3:16

Jesus was betrayed,humililated,beaten and being mocked at..The time from his betrayal til his crucifixion is just so upsetting and painful when you think bout it..But have u ever wondered why its being called Good Friday?What is so good about this very day that its being called Good Friday?To me,indeed this very day is a Good Friday.Think about it,Jesus died for Us,for our salvation…He did this because he loves us all…And because of that very reason we should be happy…:)When Jesus died,the whole earth shook and the curtains in the temple was torn from top to bottom,symbolizing that we are no longer seperated from God,that we can go straight to God in prayer and praise…Jesus never took self pity on himself as he carried his cross..A large number of ppl followed him,including women who mourned and wailed for him.Jesus turned to them and said to them,’Daughters of Jerusalem,do not weep for me;weep for yourselves and for your children"(Luke 23:27-29)Then why should we mourn for Jesus?would he want to see us mourn for Him?
           Im really thankful for this very day….when i think of what God did for me on the cross,it makes me feel so loved instead…The love God showed is uncondition,willing to sacrifice his life for us..will anyone sacrifice his life for u,if not for Jesus?think bout it…

Have u thank God yet?