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Song on laptop: Thank You For Loving Me by Bon Jovi

Note: I can sense that this blog is going to be rather DEPRESSING,yes,depressing is the word..So do bear with me for a moment….If you dont like reading depressing post then i guess its not too late to stop reading now and change to a more merry blog…

         The time is 3.30pm and my bro,mum and I are walking in Saberkas to get my bro a black shirt for the Band Concert tomolo night…As i was walking and looking around,i realize that i was very under-dressed compared to the other people around…Looking down at myself,i was wearing my favourite old pink baby tee,3/4pants and flip flops…i most probably looked like i was going to the pasar malam or to the veggie market…For once,i felt so unattractive and very unhappy with myself…Taking a peep at the mirror on the wall,instead of feeling better,i felt worst…Gosh,wat am i compared to all those skinny gals bouncing around in the shopping mall…all i am is just a fat,chubby blob with awful looking dark circles under my eyes and pimples on my face due to that-time-of-the-month syndrome…And now ugly looking insects bites on both my legs which causes me to stay away from skirts..I guess the only thing that i was proud of is my nicely painted nails..But for goodness sake,who the heck looks at ppl’s finger nails???haha….So bottom line is,nothing at all to be proud of…What happened to that Adriana who used to walk around in full of confidence bout how she looked and not bothered if she was chubby???I really need to get my life in order again…I guess in India,i never bothered to look nice or presentable…i just wore watever i wanted cause i know there isnt anyone to impress and even when i did dress up nicely,people will start their staring frenzy…So it totally rule out the idea of actually dressing up,putting on make up and feel good about yourself…For me to dress up in india,is actually a very rare occasion-only when im going out and im ready to impress ppl…so i guess i kinda lost touch in looking my very best when i go out…hmph…

            Then later,i finally had the chance to have the car to myself where i drove to the nearest park to do my now-not-so-routine jog..Been lagging behind in my exercise…But i will keep my words…i will be engross in my workout this hols…will not mob around at home…So anyways,i finally got the car to myself and finally get to go jog…So as i was driving,nearly reaching there,at the traffic light,it started to drizzle….AH damn….in all days when i have the car to finally go jog,its gonna start raining!LOSER….Nevertheless,i just drove into that park and complete wat i,well,started?lol…Said a little prayer God please stop the rain fr pouring til i finish my jog and put on my shoe and there i ran…
            
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           After completing my 1st round,fatigue started to build up in legs and i started panting really hard….Gosh,im so unfit!I dun usually feel this tired after only jogging one round…oh well,i havent jog for a long time,so…Heart rate increases,Blood pressure increases,Respiration rate increases,vasodilation of the arterioles and venules..and wat else is supposed to happen during exercise physiology???ah damn,cant remember…hehe…anyhow,after completing 2nd round,i had to stop my jogging coz it was rather hard to breath dy…:P then then…i walked…and the most unfortunate thing happen…i felt like going toilet to relieve myself…i guess i was drinking to much before jogging….hmmm….since when exercise physiology causes micturation reflex to occur????ugh…In all days when i finally have the car to finally go jogging,i feel like going to the toilet…LOSER
          Once satisfied with myself,i quickly went back to my car,(starting to hear the thunder frequently)drank a bottle full and quickly go into the car…OK rain,u can  pour down now …And it did,it started pouring like cats and dogs….ok ok…no,i was just kidding…it didnt start raining…didnt even see a single drop of rain til i reach back home…so much of hoping it will rain..Did i mention that its very hot in kuching currently???Owh i hope it rains,at least it will suit the mood im in now….

Til then….cherios!!(ok,that sounded a little too cheerful…lol)

Song on laptop : Angel of Mine by Monica

              Why is it so hard for me to make my OWN decision?If given a chance i will never make decisions for myself…Many of times,i sit in front of the menu not knowing wat to order,hoping that sumone will decide for me what to eat…esp when i dont understand half the things written in the menu…hahah….
             Was invited by my friend to join him and 15 of them to Santubong to spend a night there…Was really interested with the idea despite the fact that im not so close to most of them and i don’t know some of the people…And to make the decision harder,it was on my 1st weekend here and i didnt want to miss church for it.My parents wont be so pleased either….But anyways,i asked my parents if i could go,hoping they were decide for me whether i should go or not…when given the green light by my parents,i was still torned…was still undecided whether i should go for it,spend one nite with ppl i hardly know or should i just drop this golden opportunity of meeting up with old frens and rekindle sum friendship…i have no idea why is it soo hard for me to make one stupid decision,esp now that my parents have given me that green light…was really hoping that my parents will give me a big fat no to solve all my problems…i guess i was afraid that i will feel left out among them and would end up not enjoying my time there….if it was just a day trip,i think i wouldnt have minded so much…ugh,Adriana,wats wrong with u???why cant u just make one stupid decision for urself???dont u want to get from the house and have fun with friends???ugh

             Nevertheless,i went in the end and suprising,i really enjoyed my time there…got to see all the different character of people and discover things bout my old friends…but the bad thing is,now my leg is itching like mad from all the sand fly bites…must resist from scratching them or they will leave scars on my leg…hahah….

  two sweet couples walking down the beach enjoying the serenity there

look…the crabs are rather artistic too…

tata!!!

                   When was the last time you thought to yourself that you needed to change your hairstyle and actually come about doing it?When was the last time you changed that old,worn out pair of shoe you have on for as long as you can remember?When was the last time u changed your handphone coz the old one was starting to give your problems?When was the last time you had to change your lifestyle because the lifestyle u are currently having is spoiling either your lungs or your liver or your heart?
                 I use to think that changes were good…well,at least ppl tell me that changes are good…But are they really good?Sumtimes we do realize that some people,instead change for the better,has change for the worst.Its funny how people can change from one extreme to another…one minute they are your best of best friends and the next moment, KA-BOOM…they are stabbing you from behind…One minute,you are laughing away with them,the other minute,you are yelling at each other and probably wont talk to each other anymore..
                 But i somehow  feel that changes are important,depending on what kind of change it is,i guess…The change should make you a better person all together,right?Years back,i always wanted to change my eating habit,since i was bigger last time…never got around doing it coz i was just plain lazy to get up from my comfort zone…til i started fasting and thats when i realize that change will only happen if u start trying…and thats when i begin to slowly change my eating habit,and lost about 15kg…but sad to say now,i lost that determination to eat almost nothing for the day…haha…so to change,u will need to get out from that comfort zone…it might be,being on that cozy bed,sleeping all day long or the feeling of familiarity of the things around that prevents u from changing…Then as you get up from that comfort zone,change must take place slowly but surely,you will see the results soon..and alot of determination must follow that…if there isnt any determination,then you will fall back into that comfort zone again…

                 What changes are good u may ask me now…well,changing to a better person means treating other people better…making them smile and when you begin to care for other people more than u care for yourself…when your vocabulary has more YOU in it and less ME or I.Changing for a better person means quiting smoking esp after being told by your friends or loved ones so many times…Having a healthy lifestyle of exercising at least 30 mins a day and chose to eat more greens and drink more plain water…Change to be a more generous person,giving to others,esp when they are in need…And at the same time learn to receive too :)….Changes will only take place after you decide what and in which area you should change…List them down and start by slowly changing,step by step…
                 So im determined to change to be a better person…smile more,love more and care more…  I dont want my frens to end up talking about how much i changed for the worst…instead i wanna leave a lasting impression on ppl,a good one…haha…
                  Til then,i think i must CHANGE the stupid   alanis morrissette song playing on my laptop…Its spoiling my calm mood…Tata
              

2 more practicals to go!!!!I cant wait!!!Yippee!!!!!