curry anyone??

song on laptop: Don’t want you back by emon(Gurl version)

           Omg…its 1am now and damn,im still so very full!!!Our sponsor-JPA came to visit us today and we had a privilage to have dinner with En.Azman in Taj Manjarun hotel(this is my 3rd time there)…Since the food was free,man i ate like a pig!Well actually everybody ate like a pig!!haha…
           well, En Azman came to visit us this time is not to bring us out for good food but was to actually see how we all coping here and to discuss bout our increase in allowance,and also to discuss with the dean bout our second year and about the intake of our juniors…aint it great?im gonna have juniors!!!huhuhuhu….
          I dont want to rattle on and im abit tired…u know,after eating full full sure sleppy…haha…But anyways, below, listed are the food i had for dinner…dont jealous,k??

1)veggie fried rice
2)mutton that actually tasted like rendang!yum yum
3) fried yummy fish.had 2 servings of that
4) salad
5) aloo gobi(potato with cauliflower)
6) paneer in white sauce( like taufu but its made fr curd)
7? nan
kari terung(this is really good!!)
9) papadum…but not as nice as what i got in anu’s hse…haha
10) black forest cake(awful like nobody’s business)
11) vanilla ice cream…yum yum   but couldnt finish coz the waiter gave me so much(that waiter was flirting with me ok?) so i gave half of my ice cream to chee chung…hehe…thanks chee chung!!

the food i had…yum yum…i found out that i have a thing for taking pictures of FOOD!!

thats me!!!after dinner…

Song on laptop: If you’re not the one by Daniel Beddingfield

           Mayday mayday…Red alert from room 312…can anybody hear me??Over-

     I guess my cry was heard from a distance…Yesterday,as i was talking to one of my frens she told me that once upon a time someone too felt the same way as i did towards her and when confronted,she told that someone to just deal with it coz that is the way she is…
    Now,that struck me…i mean wats the point i complain bout it when this is somthing that will actually boost me to do better and to work harder???dont i long for these kind of influences???and i cant change the way ppl are…being in a relationship(be it friendship or courtship or bgr) takes alot of understanding and alot of give and take…i should tolerate all these and not let it come between the friendship i have with my roommate…she is a really nice person to begin with and i really do love her…am actually grateful that she is my roomate…the other day during valentine’s day,she actually gave me a valentine’s day gift coz i think she kesian me no boy boy sayang me.haha….and i was so touch by that act of her that i actually felt like crying…she was the very 1st person i told the day i let go of raymond 100% on 13th february 2006(yea i know it actually took me 1 yr to realize that i havent been fair to him for still clinging on to him even when there wasnt an ‘US’ anymore)
      and now i think i am more rajin dy…will isolate myself in the library so that ill study…hahha…and also now im not always in the room so i dont get stressed up anymore staying in the room…huhuhu…

to end this blog…let me leave u all with a story….

as u all know that there has been an alert bout bird flu in this state right?anyways,the other day i went for dinner in a restaurant with grace…and we both ordered mutton.i had mutton briyani and grace sum sambal mutton thingy…after we both finished ordering dy…the waiter looked at both of us…y are u two taking mutton????why dont want to eat chicken??? tutututu…i guess someone has not been reading the news…

I cant believe im saying this but….i think i feel very stressed staying in my room…y??because my roomate studies like 24/7!!!she sleeps later than me and she wakes up at dawn to study while im still snoring away…everytime i turn around i see her studying!!and damn she feels guilty if she havent study for a few hours…and look at me,i didnt even touch my books that whole weekend and now also i read like 2 hrs a day.hahaha…i know that should motivate me to study more but i dont know why,the more i look at her the more stressed up i feel…and when im stressed ill come online more often…and when that happen,i wont be studying and that will lead to last minute studying and hence regrets for never studying when i had to…sigh…i think to her,im one lazy slob…huhuhuhu…man,this sux.
      so now am i supposed to ignore that feeling and seriously start studying or should i take it easy and enjoy my life while i still can??
      today this morning as i think about it,i really feel depressed til the extend that i even felt stressed in class when i sit next to her and she could answer everything the teacher asked…it never bothered me before but today it really did…i really dunno wats up with me…sigh…
     our medical week is coming up…and we were supposed to have a meeting bout it this evening an 6pm…and guess wat time that class representative came??? 1 hr later!!!7pm…screw him man….and that also the meeting was only for 20 minutes…at first i was really ‘bersemangat’ to join sumthing but after that meeting,after seeing how the locals want to hog every event…i tot just forget bout it lah…i guess i would only participate if they really need a person to fill up the space…later ill seem like im so desperate to join it.dahlah i was one of the 5 malaysian that went and its not like i can join any sporting event…maybe except running…then thought i could join modern dancing but it seems like alot of locals wanna join that…and its not like they will let us participate in it…hmmm…
      there is now bird flu in india…1st detected in bombay…i really dunno if it has reached kanartaka yet…wait,lastest news said that about 16000 chickens had died of bird flu in kanartaka…o_0 but so far i dont think anybody has died fr it.many preventive measures has been taken.about 5.1 million poultry has been killed in northern india and now my mess(cafeteria) has stop serving any chicken and egg…i really dunno what ill do if i cant eat chicken…the mess food dahlah so horrible…wat more now we dont have chicken…huhuhuhu…i guess ill need to go out often to get my source of protein-yummy mutton…
     i really hope this bird flu thingy will subside soon…

Song on laptop : My Valentine by Martina Mcbride

          When they came back yesterday fr their little outing,well,i was still sulky sulky in my room.i guess i havent really forgiven them…saying is always much easier but i was no where near in doing it.i even becamed annoyed in everything my roomate was saying to me…But after a walk to the nearest shopping mall and talking to anusia(thanks girl!) i felt so much better…not as angry as before and i forgave them.Anusia really have the capability in cheering me up…she has always been there for me when i needed a friend…love u gal!
        Anyways,our friends from manipal came to visit us in mangalore…so being hospitable,we all mangalore ppl brought them to the beach..Can u believe that in the past 5 months being here,this was the first time i went to the beach here…haha…so in my 3/4 pants,sunblock,sleeveless and with full of excitment i head to the beach with all my friends…the beach is not far from my hostel,about 15 minutes away.we had to take a boat across and walk a distance to finally reach the beach…
when i set my foot down on the soft,white sand,smell the seawater,and feel the breeze on my face and hair,the sun setting down into the sand…i knew that this was paradise…it made u feel calm and all the stress and worries all seems to dissapear(i think i havent been to any beach in a very very long time,thats y the crap) it really made me feel grateful that i am able to feel and appreciate all these and watch the sunset…God must have been really creative to have to create such a nice place!
       i really had fun the the beach…i tell u,i was 100% dirty…its not like we went swimming in the sea but thanks to the guys,they managed to get all of us wet,kicking water and throwing sand on each other…anybody who came near became victims..grace commented that i looked like a jungle woman.i had sand om my face,hands,ears,back and on my shirt.but i guess amongst all of us,liew was the dirtiest.While he was trying to put sand on one of the guys,both of them fell into the water.
padan muka.
We manage to catch the sunset.well,to my disapointment,the sunset wasnt as beautiful as i expected it to be.there wasnt any change of colour in the sky and there was too many clouds in the sky that evening.nevertheless,we were all so engrossed in our ‘playing’ that we forgotten to watch the sunset properly.
At about 7.30pm we went back from the beach.Since they wasnt any auto there and it was getting really dark,we all took bus…after a few stops,2 elderly women stepped into the bus.so being courteous,both grace and i gave our seat to them lah…Little did i know,as i was getting  up and was giving way to them,the bus suddenly braked and wooooowwwwww i was thrown to the front of the bus.thank God i was fast enough to grab hold of the pole and try to maintain composure.it seriously felt like i was going to be thrown out of the bus coz the door was wide open!..all my freinds in the bus got so shocked at wat they saw(me doing stunt and all) and one by one offered their seat to me.so much for doing something noble huh?But truthfully,i was ok…abit shacken but i was really fine…haha…i know god is protecting me.
       that night we all had dinner in hoa hoa.haha…we reached there at about 8pm.Imagine,all of us,especially me and grace full of sand and our pants all wet,stepping into a restaurant.Thank God the place got toilet to clean ourselves up.But i think we finished the water in the toilet coz after that there wasnt any water coming out from the pipe.oopss….the guys on the other end had the opportunity to go back to their hostel to bath and change.this was because their hostel was really near the restaurant and also they do not have any curfew…Unlike poor us,we all have to be in the hostel by 9pm.the pak guard will lock the damn gate,sharp at 9pm,no later…anyways,after placing our order,we waited and waited and WAITED for our food…then at about 8.50pm,when the food still havent came,all the girls,unfortunately had to leave.sigh…that also when we reached the hostel,we had to run up so that we are not locked out.i really hate the curfew here…man its so damn early!everytime we want to go out for dinner,we will have to rush with our food to make sure we make it back on time.This gives me another reason to look foward in renting my own apartment in the 2nd yr.

then once again today we went for another outing.we all went to manasa waterpark,about 30 minutes from bejai.errm…the place looks real impressive at first.it actually looks like sunway lagoon!They have all the thrill rides and yea,at first, the slides were really fun  but after a while we all became quite sick of the rides.haha…they didnt even have any adult pool.they only have a baby pool.that also they scolded us for playing with the kids’ slide.haha..now im became so dark!i guess my spf30 doesnt work for the sun here!haha…
actually i didnt want to go with them this morning because both meng yee and grace didnt want to go…but im happy with myself for deciding to go…well,even i did get abit bored at the end of it but i really had pure fun!haha…its been a long since i had this much fun.haha…and also i guess i shouldnt always stick to these two all the time..i should also make good friends with the rest..so now im really exhausted from all the running and playing and all the rush of adrenaline…
      im so gonna sleep well tonight…huhuhuhu…..

the chinese bunch that went

       im sooo pissed now….like really…pissed at my friends…well,friends do not DO NOT leave anyone behind…even if one is tired or one say she wants to sleep,that does not DOES NOT give you the right to leave her out from your little outing….u could at least ask her if she wants to go…at least she will not feel lost and least important….
      This makes me think if im really that invisible….makes me wonder if  i am of no use in this society…i remember once when i was still in ktt…the whole chinese group planned to go for dinner together,apparently celebrate sumone’s birthday…and guess wat???i wasnt told bout it AT ALL…til i was preparing for my dinner and my housemate blurted out that they all going for dinner.Asked if im going as well…and man,was i shocked!!and in my mind i was thinking….fine lah…dont need to invite melah…not that ill lose out on anything(oh really?)but actually i was really hurt to the core…its like u have this feeling of rejection boiling up in ur heart…instead of feeling sad,i started getting angry at all of them…we being the minority in the college usually stick together in everything we do…was it because i m only half chinese that they never looked at me seriously???was it because i cant speak chinese that they have rejected me??or was it just because im INVISIBLE??do they really hear me when i was saying sumthing?do they actually care that i exist
??but it seems that they were also celebrating my birthday and that it slipped their mind to invite me…ah…wanted to sulked and remain angry at them in my room but i really got no choice but to tag along and have dinner with them…
        i was reading tuesdays with morrie…and one part was talking about ‘how love goes on‘ many times we are so caught up with the world and that we are always in the hurry..this is because ppl haven’t found the real meaning in their life yet…so they are running all the time looking for it.If they think the next car,the next house,the next carrier,the next distinction,the next most expensive set of clothing,the next best book to buy… they will just keep on running and running…have u ever once pay full attention to the person u are talking to???have u ever talk to them without blanking out into space,thinking of the football game the night before or of the sales that is going on or day dreaming of ur loved one and when u suddenly remember that u are in a middle conversation,u fall back to earth with ur "uh huh" "yeah,ur right" to get back to the pace of the conversation…i gotta admit that even i did that many times…i learned that u must be fully present which means being WITH the person and not mind wondering off sumwhere…i guess,to make ppl love u,u must first love other’s first…after all GOD made us in His image and since God is love,we also must love…and there is no compromise in that…and that many ppl still lack…though they claim they love but that love is just human love…love that will eventually come to an end…love that will make other’s hurt and love that chooses…but God kind of love last for it is unconditional…
       so i guess,i should forgive them…so what if it slipped their mind that i still exist but that shouldnt hinder me from still loving them right??Unconditional love remember??God kind of love…yea…i shall do that…

Song on laptop : Lie to me by Daniel Powter

     Referring to the comment Healsca posted…he asked me to booze with the Punjabi humans to feel better…now my question is…does booze actually make u feel happy???Well for the record,chocolate really does make u feel better…it stimulates the production of some hormone which makes you happy and it releases stress…it goes the same for exercise too…and i think this is a more healthier way to de-stress despite the fact that chocolate can be abit fattening…haha…not that I’m against alcohol and all coz i do drink alcohol too once in a blue moon…but if consumed too much it burns ur stomach and liver…and ur liver is the most vital organ in our body after the brain and heart since most of the body’s metabolism is performed here…and also it causes renal problems…(now i sound like a medic student kau kau…eee…spooks me out…huhuhuhu…)other than that it burns ur pocket too!!!but the alcohol in india quite cheap lar compared to what u get in malaysia…the other day my frens baught red wine,rm30 ny and thats the most expensive wine they have in the shop…o_0so ppl booze here like nobody’s business…
         anyways,i just came back from cafe coffeeday(indian version of starbucks here) with my friends…took yummy chocolate cake-chocolate fantasy with lotsa choc sauce on it…yum yum…and had almond coffee.They actually have chopped almonds in the coffee itself which was really good…so now im on sugar high…haha…and the amount of whipped cream they had on top!!unlike the coffee u get in coffee bean or starbucks,this place is really generous with their whipped cream…feeling tempted?i guess almond + chocolate and adriana can never go wrong huh? gosh,i just realize all the cholesterol and calories i consumed today!!*guilt pangs..must go jogging tomorrow.o_0

       thats the picture of the two closest friends i have here…love u guys!!muaks

ok…gotta go!

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i hope i dont fail my biochem!!!no mood wanna write blog dy…:( chocolate and ice cream please!

music on laptop : You and Me by lighthouse

       Currently im attending a spirit-filled,english medium church in mangalore-New Life Church…not a big church but yet the congregation is really on fire for God.And i can feel the spirit of God filling that place every worship time…well,ive been attending that church eversince the first day i came to Mangalore (and its funny that only now im writting bout it.well,its better to be late than sorry right??haha)anyways,the church now moved to a new building a few blocks away from the old place of worship and today is the 3rd week we have been worshiping there…and the funny thing is,the place will always experience black out at least once during the service…(the electricity in india is really unstable so there are constant black-outs)
       Today the blackout happen half way during praise and worship time…so there wasnt any music nor any overhead projection…but the worship just went on…and as i was worshiping there,it occured to me that even when the electricity go off,it did not hinder everybody to continue to praise God.The worship did not stop half-way,not knowing what to do…Back home in Malaysia we are all so comfortable with what we have and we actually rely so much on the latest technology,latest equipment and even more to electricity…we depend so much on making sure everything works PERFECT before the service starts.It makes me realize that even with the bare necessity of life we can STILL worship God..He does not look for the latest,most canggih equipment.What he looks at is the heart of His people…This again reminds me of my kampung church back home in Long Seridan…The old people there are still so on fire for God…Though they are old but u see them jumping up and down and dancing to the LORD when their favourite ‘Segala Puji’ song is being sung.With the little things they have yet they can still praise God…A total revelation for me…
       Actually coming to India makes me appreciate what i have more…It makes me appreciate the fact that im so blessed to have things that others dont.It makes me appreciate what kind of development Malaysia has.The highways,big big buildings,having everything so high-tech..And yet through all these,it makes me learn to be a stronger person all together…

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!(yes scream adriana,scream…let it all out!!)

            Im now on a break in the midst of my exams before my next biochem practicals and viva(like oral test but in this they really kill u) on monday.They are really killing us softly in this exams…so much to study yet so little time…they never gave us time to revise our portions before the exams come…yet they started with so many new topics which would not even come out for the exams and they expect the students to attend the classes,making such a fuss when the class was empty…but nobody cares…by the time exams was near,ppl started bunking classes and most of the time only less than half of the class will be filled…i remember on saturday(the last saturday before our exams) only 4 people went for biochem class..then for anatomy,quite a number of students came cause they all thought it was our ex-hod(head of department)’s class.but sad enough,the hod didnt take the class.so can u imagine all the dissapointment the students might have?   
        I did so badly in my theory paper,well except biochem…was quite happy with my paper despite the fact that i literally CREATED my own story for the last question…couldnt remember what beta oxidation was all about…haha…anyways,so like i said,i did very badly for my theory paper…its like i study so much yet i could not remember half the things i studied and that part sux!i guess my too much isnt enough…im too laid back bout things,taking things as they come along.i no longer have that determination to push me foward..everyone around me study like crazy but im just plain lazy..my eyes are on my books but my mind is somewhere else.therefore i made a note to myself
   
   NOTE TO SELF #1 : dont be such a lazy bum.must MEMORIZE every single thing in ur book…if u can,eat the book

            Yesterday i had anatomy practicals(histology spotters and discussion; gross anatomy spotters,surface marking and discussion) and viva for anatomy…since i did so badly for my theory paper so i tot i could patch things up wif my practicals…but sad enough,i screwed up in that too…i thought i prepared myself well after learning from the mistakes i made in my 1st sessionals(after the practicals 2 lecturers commented that i should read more)and i was rather confident this time…But despites that,i didnt do well cause the lecturers asked funny funny questions…stuffs that i never paid attention to…for example,my previous dissection teacher told us that the ligaments of the urinary bladder is not important so no need to memorize…so i never bother reading it lah…then yesterday,the ma’am asked me ‘ what are the ligaments of the urinary bladder?the true and false ligament.’ and in my head i was going…oohh shit…i never read…thank god i knew one ligament…that also she screwed me nicely by asking the developement of that ligament…where it derived fr in feotal life and all(i guess u all wont understand what im toking about huh?medic talk…haha)and for almost every organ,she asked me the embrology part of it and i seriously did not bother reading embrology coz i tot they wont ask…manatahu….so when i went back to my room yesterday,i made another note to myself

             NOTE TO SELF #2 :  Dont take embrology lightly anymore.Make sure u read up on that and  memorize all the funny funny names in it.

        And with that im determined to do well in my remaining 2 practicals and viva-biochem and physio…so will not waste these 3 days of holiday….but i dy wasted half of my day today doing nutting at all…:|

        I guess,we should always learn from our mistakes everytime we fall…and i guess with all these exams and with all these blood sucking lecturers expecting us to know everything at the tip of our fingers…it just makes u better at facing the exams…it gives u more determination to work harder and harder and prove to these lecturers that we are no idiot..some people realize it earlier on and people like me only realize it now.haha…at least now i know what is important and what is not(actually everything is important..like my roomate alwez say…just eat the book lah) and i also know which style of learning is not effective…though i did so badly,it will not stop me from striving and it wont stop me from achieving my goal in becoming a doctor…i will pass my 1st mbbs and later graduate and make my family proud and glorify God..i know i can suceed with God’s help.

29" He gives strength to the weary
   and increases the power of the weak
30Even youths grow tired and weary,
  and young men stumble and fall;
31but to those who hope in the Lord
  will renew their strength,
They will soar on wings like eagles;
  they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:29-31

jia you jiau you…adriana jia you!