curry anyone??

Ok Ok..dun look at me like tat!i admit i can be a little ‘hiaw’ sumtime and its ok to be ok?its only normal…just tat sum ppl dun dare admit it…u noe,its so weird tat after raymond left,its like suddenly all the cute guys started popping up everywher from god noes wher…and what really makes ur heart race is when one of the cute guys actually smile at u!!!and in my mind ill be thinking…’so i havent lost my touch yet’….so who say u need a boyfriend to actually make u feel special and to be the centre of attention…i noe i used to think tat way…and the day tat i was single again…i really felt like shit not becoz i miss him but because suddenly i feel like a nobody…no more special…but u noe wat?tats a lie…a big lie i put on myself…everybody IS SPECIAL and we dun need nobody to make us feel special…just wift the right amount of confidence and the right amount of faith in urself…u will definately pull attention to urself from guys and fr gals…
so bac to my topic on guys…hehhe*cheeky smile… so i met this really cute guy one day and god noes wher did i get the courage fr and when over and tok to him….and goodness,he’s so cute!but i tell u,when after a few minutes he left,its like i suddenly haf a memory loss…i totally forgotten his name!!!and do u know what a bummer tat is??!!!and eversince tat day i can never get enuff courage to go up and tok to him or even smile or say hi at him…ugh..sumtimes i really just feel like boxing myself!!!sigh…so any advice for me???

its really weird sumtimes tat once u lose sumone its when u start to realize how much the person means to u…well,if u all havent noticed im once again a single woman…happy? u may ask me…well, truthfully no…it takes lots of adjusting and lots of lots of tears to go with it…even at times when i said to myself tat i wont cry anymore it just take hold of me and ther i go causing ‘banjir kilat’ in my room….but i now i guess im doing really fine…at least now i can drool over guys without feeling guilty and tok to them anytime i want to!!haha…

but i guess i wont want to start any relationship just yet…i want to learn to enjoy singlehood to the fullest first before embarking on another relationship…afterall,i wont want to end up in another heartbreak yet…coz i noe i wont be able to give all my heart to him…so gals,(and boys)if u need sumone to hang up wif,ill be most than willing…just make sure its after my exams…till then,adios!!!