curry anyone??

plz view my photo album to see the pics taken during the mumbai trip i had recently…:)

        So we come to the end of yr 2006…times really flies so fast that we sumtimes dont realize it…another 356 days has gone by….the past few days….i started to think over wat i did in the yr 2006…have it been a yr of achievements or a yr of failure and broken heart?have i fulfiled it as the way God would want me to fulfil it??Have i make a difference in other ppls life?
      I guess 2006 has been a totally crazy yr for me…No doubt there are many heartbreaks and sadness along the way but yet in between those hardship,happiness and joy springs out fr the dry dessert…my friends have been there to cheer me up when i was down and were there to booty which me when i was feeling ‘itchy’ hehe….Ive made new close frens and also made frens with the wrong kind of ppl who are ready to break me and bring me down….
      Studies was like a roller coaster ride…ive finished my 1st year mbbs and am now in the 2nd year…I think i played too much during the begining to 2nd yr that i was unaware how fast time was flying for me…i dined,shoped, went for the movies,went for coffee,go late for class and sit around in the house doing practically nothing…suffered the consequences during my 1st sessional…hah!!am hoping i wouldnt fail…thats my wish as of now…during this exams was also my 1st time in my life i cried after my exams besides me crying for not being able to do add maths in form 4 and i have an exams the next day…it was after my pharmacology viva exams….got screwed really badly by the lecturer and i couldnt answer most of his questions…and to add to that i did badly in my practicals before the viva…but that only made me strive harder in the following exams….:)
         I wouldnt say that my new ended well…was really looking foward to going back this time to be away fr ppl considering the fact on how f**ked up my life has turn out to be at the end of 2006…ppl just have a way to make other ppl’s life a living hell…but no point looking back into that…during this time back home i really have a good time to let go all the stress i carried and to let go all the pain i felt…and again its tru my family i start to see life as it used to be…The one kind of ppl i cant stand are hypocrites…in front of u they are so good to u but behind ur back they are a total different person…all they want is to look good in front of ppl….The one place u cant meet hyprocrites are in our families…and thats y its always nice to be home….huhu….
          I really do not know wat 2007 holds for me but like one song says…"its a new world,its a new life,its a new start" yupz…its gonna be a new start for me again…and hope that when i return to india things will look towards the brighter side and will be more joyful and prosperous one…With that i pray that God will be guiding me tru and thats my prayer for all too….
         HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

ps-i havent think of a new yr resolution yet…hmmm…hehe….but will think for it soon….til then…i gotta go….sleepy!!

Where Is Your Heart

I don’t believe in the smile that you leave
When u walk away
And say goodbye
Well,i don’t expect
The world to move underneath me
But for God’s sake
Could you try?

I know that you’re true to me
You’re always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine

Where is your heart?
’cause i dont really feel you
Where is your heart?
What i really want is to believe you
Is it so hard to give me what i need?
I want your heart to bleed
Thats all im asking for
Where is your heart?

I dont understand
Your love is so cold
Its always me that is reaching out
For your hand
And I’ve always dreamed
That love would be effortless
Like a petal fallin’ to the ground
A dreamer followin’ his dreams

It seems so much is left unsaid
But you can say anything
oh,anytime you need
Baby,its just you and me

I know that you’re true to me
You’re always there
You say you care
I know that you wanna be mine

            Was surfing the net jnow and i suddenly thought bout the cartoon,the american tale…about a little mouse(cant remember his name) who got seperated from his family when they were moving to america….and so,in the movie,the poor little thing was looking for his family….and in one point,he became really sad and nearly given up hope…and so he sang this very famous song-somewhere out there…..

Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale blue night,
Someone’s thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,
Someone’s saying a prayer,
That we’ll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

And even though i know
How very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star

And when the night will start to sing
the lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we’re sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through,
Then,we’ll be together
Somewhere out there,out there where dreams come true….

I love this song….to hear just click here ->somewhere out there

this song makes me miss many ppl so much….esp a special someone….though sometimes it may seem like the distance apart is too far,but it helps to know tat we all are under the same big sky…and tat makes the distance smaller….i feel loved tonight…..

Song on laptop:Everyday I love You by Ronan Keating

            Was chatting to my brother,Isaac today and he told me that his teacher called him a gas molecule because he has low concentration….As funny as it may seem,i think im also is like a gas molecule….i realize today,that i can hardly spend more than 20 minutes,seated on my chair,studying my patho….man,my studies is really in deep shit…Now with the riot alarm in mangalore,and the 48 hours curfew,we have no college nor posting(YES!!) and we are not allowed to go out(DAMN)….A suitable time to be studying,i know,but haha….the time spent on my chair is not long enough to even warm it…Ill walk around my room,walk to the kitchen(one disadvantage of having a fridge) or go surf the net…Its been 28 hours since ive not been out of my house and i think i only spent less than 2 hours of it reading the 2 pages in my harsh mohan patho book…good going adri….
            It really sux that I cant get out of the house…Goodness sake,its friday today….supposed to have dance class now….yea,btw,im into ballroom dancing now….Took up ballroom dancing class since sept 7….so far,ive learn 2 dance- quickstep and jive  ….its something different from studying(not that im studying also…haha) but its an interesting way of exercising…just too bad,we would need a partner if we wanna dance…and in the dance class itself,there are very little guys compared to the amount of girls….there is once,there is only 3 guys for 10 gals…haha…so patheticly sad…but as long as we had fun…that wat matters most….hmmmm
         anyways,my concentration is running dy…im now thinking of the fridge in the kitchen…haha….til then…adios!

my darling vodka

Lonelines has one company and its me…..no matter how i am in the midst of so many ppl,yet this loneliness kept haunting me….Today i realized how lonely i am….so many days of being felt loved and needed and wanted but that loneliness just wont leave me alone….if i promise ill be there for my friends and loved one to hold the tears fr falling fr their eyes and to take away all their fear…but who’s gonna be there for me when im sad or when im scared…who’s gonna hold me tight and tell me that everything is gonna be all right?when everyone has turn away and when the world has turn so cold,who’s gonna keep me warm and who’s gonna stay by my side?why am i sitting here,crying in silence and nobody here is here to comfort me?
Never felt this lonely before….evrybody has sumone but who do i have?

Song on laptop: Drive myself crazy by N’sync

              Days and hours have passed so fast,before knowing it,its already been 1 month since ive been back here…things have been crazy…hardly any time for myself…hardly anytime to sit and study(even when there is time to do so,but…haha…will be too lazy to study)
              My classes starts at 8am everyday.Then at 9.30am we would all have posting in the hospitals for 3 hours.The bus leave from my college at 9.00am and being me,ill take my own sweet own time to get into the bus and would have to stand the whole way to the hospital(actually the hospital is really near to the college but i have no idea why does the bus driver wanna take the long way! a 5 mins auto ride becomes a 15 min bus ride)Pack like sardin in the bus with the bad road condition makes sleeping in the bus a really impossible thing…During posting,im in unit III,OPD.there,the doctor will take classes for us,explaining to us about how to check patients and all then would ask us to go to the wards to try watever she taught on the patients and write case sheats…I really look foward to it at 1st…i mean,finally,this is wat medicine is all about…but soon enough,i became so discourage because
1. the language barrier…all the patients can only speak kannada(the local language here)effective from this year,they have stopped providing translaters…so it sucks for us…in my unit,there isnt local students,so seeing patients is quite difficult…we are provided with a language handbook but how much can we learn from that?we can ask questions but when they answer,we wont know wat they saying….haha…(sourab,where are my language classes??!!)
2.  some of the patients are not cooperative.we’re been scolded by 2 patients so far and some just wont let us cheak on them….ugh…

           then at 12pm,after taking attendance,i will go back to my house and afternnon classes will start at 2pm til 5pm most of the days except mon,wed(if its microbiology lab) and saturday…the routine repeats itself everyday,even on saturday…so by the end of the week,ill be so exhausted already…so ive been bunking saturday morning classes 3 weeks in a row dy…hehe…cant wake up mar…then come sunday,still need to wake up early to go church….im not implying that i dun like going church…in fact,all week im looking foward for sundays…its a day,i can go meet friends and be rejuvenate after one long week…
        well,so far,since one week ive been back here…ive been enjoying myself lah…i moved out of hostel and is staying in an apartment now.so far,im loving it!no curfew and no stupid mess food we have to eat…and did i mention,i love my house…i think we did a great job decorating it…the hall is still abit empty but we trying our best to make it homey and cosy….its not far from my college…its in fact just behind my college…but haha…we still rush to class everyday.Once in the morning and the other time in the afternoon….haha…but its ok,some stress is good sumtimes….hahahahah….Most of the malaysian gals are staying here…plus alot of seniors…my neighbour are really nice but we do find weird ones too(they keep staring at us)…im staying on the 7th floor and the lift we us to come up is freakin slow!!!like snail!!!!haha….

me!!!!

my apartment before the furniture came in…haha

Song on laptop : Neon by John Mayer

        I still remember times in school when after a long vacation,our english teachers would ask us to write about our holidays…I used to hate writting those essays…Sometimes it makes you realize that your holidays have not been so great after all…Wat is a weekend in another country compared to just sitting at home watching tv everyday?Makes you feel that your holidays is nothing worth writting about…hahah…
       And today im sitting here wondering what to blog about(coz im too bored at home) so i thought,hey,why not write about my holidays…like old days in school…Not that my holidays is anything fun or interesting,something worth to write about..But no harm in writting about it right?
      Well,i havent been going out alot this holidays…Its due to many reasons i believe…One big reason is because i dont have the car this time…both my parents are working,one in the morning,the other in the afternoon…So at those times,they would always need the car.Then another factor that most of my friends have went back to college dy…and furthermore,there isnt any nice place to go shop in kuching.I hate shopping alone.My mum isnt much of a shopper so she ussually wont want to follow me go shopping…so sumtimes i just dont have the mood to go out…After all,when else will i have the chance to laze around at home,wake up in the afternoon and watch tv and dvds at home the whole time???Once college starts again,i will be sitting in front of the books…no time to laze around…So better make use of this chance wisely,right??
      Ive been helping alot in the kitchen,learning how to cook different and harder dishes,like stew chicken and pork…i also learned how to make sushi…hehe….I have no idea what caused my mum to be such a sushi-maker fanatic.so ive been her helping hand and the other day i was main chef…heheh…found out that it isnt so hard to make sushi after all…and the ingredients arent hard to find…Ive come up with my own steps to make sushi  below…

   Ingredients
For the rice
4 cups of fragrant rice
apple cider or rice vinegar
salt and sugar to taste

pieces of seaweed
cucumber,cut long
artificial crab stick,cut into halves
tuna
fried egg
(any other stuffings u like)
sushi mat
roller

Direction
1.cook the rice.Once cooked,let it stand for 10 minutes.After that,add a few tablespoons of sugar and a few pinches of salt,according to taste…Then add 2 capfuls of apple cider.Mix
2. let the rice cool down
3. Get ready the other ingredients
4. Once the rice have cooled down,cover the sushi mat with plastic.Put the seaweed on top of it…Then spread the rice on 3/4 of the seaweed piece.Then,putting another piece of plastic on top,roll the rice with a roller to get a even,flat,thin layer of rice…make sure you cover the edge of the seaweed too.
5. remove the top plastic and place the stuffings about 5cm fr the edge nearer to your side.
6. Once done,roll the seaweed over and pull on the other side to make the sushi compact.Once done,cut the sushi to be serve…
               

the process    

the product

yummy yum yum sushi….:D

    the cleaning up needed to do….bluek…o_O  MUM!!!!!     

This should make about 8 rolls of sushi…

  So there you have it…..Other than that,ive been tending my dad’s garden…would water his ‘jungle’ every evening….nutting to do mar….i remember,i used to tend his garden(we still had a  real garden then with grass and all) when my dad was studying in semenanjung malaysia.Would trim the golden duranta and bougainvillea once in two weeks.pull out those weed and ‘lalang’.I guess i always have a green hand…haha…thanks to my dad i guess…haha…Now, as i watch those flowers outside,i can see them grow as days goes by,some even starting to bloom with flowers dy…really thank God for his creation that we here can enjoy them….:D God is really creative isnt He??
   

pics fr my dad’s ‘jungle’

Im currently enjoying the company of my family back home…i know ill  miss all these company once i go back…wont be listening to Daniel’s funny laughter and Isaac’s crazy jokes.Wont hear my parent’s constant nagging…Sigh….Feeling homesick already.Haha…

    
my crazy family

Lastly,though ive been at home most of the time but im enjoying my holidays with the company of my family and ahem,not to mention the unlimited internet connection…:D And this is wat matters most…You can find joy and excitment in the midst of your family too!!!This is one holiday i will never forget…
til then!!
my mum asking me to help her make pumpkin cake now…gosh,how i hate pumpkin!!!

Sumthing i found to be really sweet…how many guys out there actually know how to treat their woman right?How many can make a girl melt away and takes her breath away?How many  can promise their gal that he will look after her til the end of lifetime?How many are willing to sacrifice everything for their woman coz she is worth it?How many actually love a woman?

Have you ever really love a woman-Bryan Adams

To really love a woman
To understand her,you’ve got to know her deep inside
Hear every thought,see every dream,and give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms,
you know you really love a woman

When you love a woman,you tell her that she’s really wanted
When you love a woman,you tell her that she’s the one
She needs somebody to tell her that it’s gonna last forever
So tell me,have you ever really…really really ever loved a woman

To really love a woman,let her hold you
Till you know how she needs to be touched
You’ve got to breath her,really taste her
til you can feel her in your blood
And when you see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

Bridge:
You’ve got to
give her some faith,hold her tight,a little tenderness
You’ve got to treat her right
She will be there for you taking good care of you
You really gotta love your woman

And when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

Song on laptop: Thank You For Loving Me by Bon Jovi

Note: I can sense that this blog is going to be rather DEPRESSING,yes,depressing is the word..So do bear with me for a moment….If you dont like reading depressing post then i guess its not too late to stop reading now and change to a more merry blog…

         The time is 3.30pm and my bro,mum and I are walking in Saberkas to get my bro a black shirt for the Band Concert tomolo night…As i was walking and looking around,i realize that i was very under-dressed compared to the other people around…Looking down at myself,i was wearing my favourite old pink baby tee,3/4pants and flip flops…i most probably looked like i was going to the pasar malam or to the veggie market…For once,i felt so unattractive and very unhappy with myself…Taking a peep at the mirror on the wall,instead of feeling better,i felt worst…Gosh,wat am i compared to all those skinny gals bouncing around in the shopping mall…all i am is just a fat,chubby blob with awful looking dark circles under my eyes and pimples on my face due to that-time-of-the-month syndrome…And now ugly looking insects bites on both my legs which causes me to stay away from skirts..I guess the only thing that i was proud of is my nicely painted nails..But for goodness sake,who the heck looks at ppl’s finger nails???haha….So bottom line is,nothing at all to be proud of…What happened to that Adriana who used to walk around in full of confidence bout how she looked and not bothered if she was chubby???I really need to get my life in order again…I guess in India,i never bothered to look nice or presentable…i just wore watever i wanted cause i know there isnt anyone to impress and even when i did dress up nicely,people will start their staring frenzy…So it totally rule out the idea of actually dressing up,putting on make up and feel good about yourself…For me to dress up in india,is actually a very rare occasion-only when im going out and im ready to impress ppl…so i guess i kinda lost touch in looking my very best when i go out…hmph…

            Then later,i finally had the chance to have the car to myself where i drove to the nearest park to do my now-not-so-routine jog..Been lagging behind in my exercise…But i will keep my words…i will be engross in my workout this hols…will not mob around at home…So anyways,i finally got the car to myself and finally get to go jog…So as i was driving,nearly reaching there,at the traffic light,it started to drizzle….AH damn….in all days when i have the car to finally go jog,its gonna start raining!LOSER….Nevertheless,i just drove into that park and complete wat i,well,started?lol…Said a little prayer God please stop the rain fr pouring til i finish my jog and put on my shoe and there i ran…
            
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           After completing my 1st round,fatigue started to build up in legs and i started panting really hard….Gosh,im so unfit!I dun usually feel this tired after only jogging one round…oh well,i havent jog for a long time,so…Heart rate increases,Blood pressure increases,Respiration rate increases,vasodilation of the arterioles and venules..and wat else is supposed to happen during exercise physiology???ah damn,cant remember…hehe…anyhow,after completing 2nd round,i had to stop my jogging coz it was rather hard to breath dy…:P then then…i walked…and the most unfortunate thing happen…i felt like going toilet to relieve myself…i guess i was drinking to much before jogging….hmmm….since when exercise physiology causes micturation reflex to occur????ugh…In all days when i finally have the car to finally go jogging,i feel like going to the toilet…LOSER
          Once satisfied with myself,i quickly went back to my car,(starting to hear the thunder frequently)drank a bottle full and quickly go into the car…OK rain,u can  pour down now …And it did,it started pouring like cats and dogs….ok ok…no,i was just kidding…it didnt start raining…didnt even see a single drop of rain til i reach back home…so much of hoping it will rain..Did i mention that its very hot in kuching currently???Owh i hope it rains,at least it will suit the mood im in now….

Til then….cherios!!(ok,that sounded a little too cheerful…lol)